Where is Your Focus?

I’m feeling the need to continue a further discussion of my post on “The Spiritual Connection”.

It seems that in my latest posts, I have been putting myself out there on the limb, with honesty, as far as what I’m experiencing that day.  The posts haven’t pertained much to caregiving, but were rather confessions relating more to “where I am at today”.  And I’m going to stick with that theme yet one more time in this post.

Recently I’ve been feeling a bit “squirrely”; I’m not “focused” [on the right things]; I’m “disconnected.”

Today a close friend said to me (after I had texted him), “you must have bumped your head. lol”  His words hit home.

This morning while driving, I thought about what’s been going on in my life – physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.  And I asked myself, “Where is your focus lately?  What is it you’ve been focusing on for the major parts of your days in the last couple of weeks?”

And my answer [to myself] came quickly, without even having to put much thought into it.  I’ve been focusing on my new website, and all the technical issues related to the site which are driving me bonkers.  I’ve been focused on what I would write and post for the day in order to honor my commitment to the 30-day challenge and to develop my writing skills.  And I’ve been focused on whether my website will eventually bring in an income.  Much of my focus for each day has been on circumstances, and things of this world, and an unknown future.

My close friends will know exactly what I’m speaking of when I write about being “not focused and disconnected.”  They will know exactly what is bothering me, just as I know.

It all boils down to my spiritual connection with God, or lack thereof in this case.

For some reason I have not been diligent in keeping my intimate spiritual connection with the Lord.  I have not been nurturing that relationship as I normally do.  My time reading the Bible has been shortened, my devotional readings have been skipped some days, and my prayer time is maybe half of what it is normally.  Hmmm.  So, is it any wonder why I feel “squirrely”?

My Christian belief and faith tells me to “Cast my cares upon Him, for He cares for me” (1 Peter 5:7).

My faith tells me to “Cast my burden upon the Lord, and He will sustain me” (Psalm 55:22).

My faith tells me to “keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.  Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth.” (Colossians 3:1-2).

So, for today, I will choose to walk out my faith.  I will choose to turn myself around and set my feet on the path that is best for me.

That does not mean I will not think about my writing or try to work out the technical issues.

It does mean that I will now choose to put them in proper perspective and in their correct order on my list of priorities.

From this day forward, my spiritual connection with the Lord comes first.  And I believe when that is my priority, the rest of the day will fall into place.

May you enjoy a peaceful Sunday evening!